Knocking on Heaven's Doors

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I've had a dream for several years now.

A dream to live a homesteading, self-sufficent lifestyle ...

a dream to live hard, yes, but simply.

My motivations for wanting to do so

are varied, and another topic entirely ...

a topic that I may (or may not)

get into someday.

I've been planning and researching and studying

this lifestyle for a long while.

I've been blessed with meeting WONDERFUL friends

in the fascinating process.

I've been looking at locations.

I've been knocking on doors.

And, I have been praying ...

God knows my needs, and my family's needs,

much better than I do.

Everytime I try to do something by myself,

it usually ends in disaster ... or in stagnant nothingness.

So I have placed it in His hands.

I have asked Him to show me what to do,

and where to go ... and, I have asked Him

 to help me get my Self out of the way.

The first place I knocked was Big Bend.

The extreme desert in isolated heaven.

This extraordinary place was my personal,

favorite pick for a location

to live and work on my dream.

The doors I knocked upon down there

all opened a crack, some pretty wide,

and I became excited.

But then, one by one, the doors slammed in my face.

Could it possibly be that God

had answered my prayers for help

in getting my Self out of the way?

I may be bold and persistent ...

and I may knock, knock, knock

where others may not ...

but when a door remains closed

I am not one to try to kick it down.

 

Especially when I have asked for

God's guidance.

 

So, back to square one, I began looking

at our original location again ...

a location that I had once loved, but

had turned my back upon.

(Yet another potential topic someday?)

And so, a few days ago, 

with trusting eyes and heart,

I began knocking again.

This time up north.

The response was immediate.

I have an interview Monday morning

with Great Plains Regional Medical Center.

I am leaving tomorrow ...

with humble prayers of thankfulness 

for having this swift opportunity, and

with humble prayers of acknowledgement

that if it is His will

it WILL be. 

I would appreciate your prayers

for my family's future, and

for a safe trip.

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