I've had a dream for several years now.
A dream to live a homesteading, self-sufficent lifestyle ...
a dream to live hard, yes, but simply.
My motivations for wanting to do so
are varied, and another topic entirely ...
a topic that I may (or may not)
get into someday.
I've been planning and researching and studying
this lifestyle for a long while.
I've been blessed with meeting WONDERFUL friends
in the fascinating process.
I've been looking at locations.
I've been knocking on doors.
And, I have been praying ...
God knows my needs, and my family's needs,
much better than I do.
Everytime I try to do something by myself,
it usually ends in disaster ... or in stagnant nothingness.
So I have placed it in His hands.
I have asked Him to show me what to do,
and where to go ... and, I have asked Him
to help me get my Self out of the way.
The first place I knocked was Big Bend.
The extreme desert in isolated heaven.
This extraordinary place was my personal,
favorite pick for a location
to live and work on my dream.
The doors I knocked upon down there
all opened a crack, some pretty wide,
and I became excited.
But then, one by one, the doors slammed in my face.
Could it possibly be that God
had answered my prayers for help
in getting my Self out of the way?
I may be bold and persistent ...
and I may knock, knock, knock
where others may not ...
but when a door remains closed
I am not one to try to kick it down.
Especially when I have asked for
So, back to square one, I began looking
at our original location again ...
a location that I had once loved, but
had turned my back upon.
(Yet another potential topic someday?)
And so, a few days ago,
with trusting eyes and heart,
I began knocking again.
This time up north.
The response was immediate.
I have an interview Monday morning
with Great Plains Regional Medical Center.
I am leaving tomorrow ...
with humble prayers of thankfulness
for having this swift opportunity, and
with humble prayers of acknowledgement
that if it is His will
it WILL be.
I would appreciate your prayers
for my family's future, and
for a safe trip.